I have been thinking a lot about SPARKLING, about how I DO sparkle and how I WANT to sparkle. As you may have seen in my last Full Moon Dream Board, I have big plans in store for my body… and my life. I have begun looking into weight loss surgery. In order to make that work for me, I will have to shift many of the ways that I currently live. That shift does not come as an inconvenience; rather it is a challenge which I am craving.
This change is about SPARKLING. It is about living to my absolute fullest potential. And I have been trying to wrap my mind around what that means exactly. Although some of this will not make sense until I am in the moment, I believe letting my imagination go to the future can help me prepare. So I have been dreaming on what things will be like… dreaming on what frame I might be able to place around behavior and thinking that will accentuate my success.
How can I make this work without feeling like a victim to my new food necessities and my eating restrictions. And one thing that has helped me is to consider CLEAN living. In this way, I can delineate what benefits my body and benefits my psyche. Asking myself if a choice promotes clean living also moves me away from the judgement of good and bad. But it might be fun to take that clean-living idea a step further and ask….will this ultimately help me to sparkle…to shine?
I want my life to SPARKLE. I have decided that I want to approach the changes that I am creating as something holistic. I don’t just want to change the way I eat. I am creating a lifestyle, a new way of being and a new way of thriving. And HOW I am transitioning is being approached with the same creativity that I bring to my whole life. I want to create a ceremony for the beginning of my new life…this will be more than a physical journey, it is not so far from some of the journeys that a shaman or wise womyn might take. I want that same depth of meaning.
Although I didn’t know this when I started the Celebration of Wellness Blog Party, but when I am done in 8 or so more months, I will have explored each area of my life and set myself up for optimum success for this new life. This is so exciting to me. It helps me believe even more in the possibility of my dream. Not only am I WISHING, but I am putting action behind the vision. I am dedicating nine months of my life to guaranteeing a more fulfilling life.
Thursday morning I will meet the doctor who may be doing my surgery. I have a thousand questions and one big lump of hope in the center of my chest. I feel like I am on the ride of my life. From the moment I discovered that this path might be for me, I have felt like I was riding a giant SPARKLE wave to the place where Spirit is lovingly leading me. And that place is beautiful. Not just the kind of beautiful you find on the cover of a magazine or whispered half-enviously when a looker walks by, but the kind of beauty that makes joy well up inside of those who witness it. The kind of beauty that is contagious… that makes others want to reach for more in their own lives. The kind of beauty that SPARKLES!
- What Love Is (curiosityquest.wordpress.com)
- It Must Be Love (collectingyourself.wordpress.com)
- Super Sized Wy-MOON (collectingyourself.wordpress.com)
- The Pledge of Alligence, Tootsie Pops, and a Female Buddhist Monk (curiosityquest.wordpress.com)