As the last day of 2011 winds down, I feel the roots of various memories and experiences reaching out to touch me. I wouldn’t have known last year at this time that my life would look like it does. I had no idea that 2011 would be the year I would fly out on my own and build my business. That is not to say that many of today’s manifested dreams weren’t seedlings last year, but I just didn’t realize growth could happen with such force and speed.
I remember with great clarity the moment the tide turned. I had a “this could change my life” experience when I signed up for the Flying Lessons e-course with Kelly Rae Roberts. Who knows if it was the course or the timing or a combination of the two. Either way, it happened. I felt like a quickening took over, and before I knew it, one event after another led me to take one of the biggest risks of my life, to making a living as a creative entrepreneur. Suddenly, I was at the doorstep to my dreams.
I feel like a lot of things have changed inside me as well. There is a confidence I feel that I haven’t known before. Not that I haven’t been confident, but more like my confidence grew in new areas of myself. My mind feels sharp and my ability to make decisions is stronger than I ever remember.
That again, seemed to come to me in a moment’s big “aha!” I realized that sometimes taking action is braver than staying put. Somehow, I had that backwards. But this year has been about not being afraid to change my mind in order to “save face” with someone.
That is a huge lesson for me. I know that I am pretty good at coming up with ideas, but I have to be willing to adjust that original idea to help it become the best it can be. That is something I practice as an artist. Sometimes a certain medium is not the right one for the image I want to express, so I have to explore and change course. As a writer, editing is essential. But in life, when I have committed to a course and found it is not right for me, I often get inundated by inner criticisms about being a quitter or not following through. I struggled with that often in 2011, and with each episode, it got easier for me. I am, more and more, seeing the creation of my life in the same way I do my art. To me that connection is essential.
I want to end 2011’s Goodbye Old Year post by thanking you. Some of you may just be finding me, others have been here from the beginning or somewhere in between. You may have found me through Jamie Ridler‘s Wishcasting Wednesdays and Full Moon Dreamboards, through my guest blog with Wellness with Kate, a blog hop like Practical Magic Blog Party or the Spreading Our Wings, or through something like Art Every Day Month, or artboy68’s 100 Portraits. How ever you have found me, I am glad you did. You make this space special and have been a big blessing to my life.
I would love to hear about your 2011. What shines, what did you learn, what do you leave behind, and what do you invite with you into your glorious New Year?